Rip off the band-aid

We started a project today that has been long overdue and with that it brought me to the blog to talk about it.  I've done a terrible job using this forum as a place to communicate with members, guests, colleagues, or anyone who enjoys reading blogs.   I have a fear of writing and more importantly being judged for what I wrote.  English was my least favorite class in high school and I always struggled believing in myself.  While working on the project near the first green, the thought crossed my mind that this project needs to be a blog post.  That thought instantly froze my thinking when the fear of writing took over.  It's weird how the mind works.

I've been an avid listener of "The Finding Mastery" Podcast by Michael Gervais since in started. (If you don't listen to this podcast, you really should.)  I usually listen to it on my way to and from work and any other time I can find.  Gervais said something today that instantly brought me back to that moment in the morning when my fear of writing froze my thinking,
         
                             "For many, fear doesn't come from the fact that we are going to blow it.
                               It is that we are not going to live up to what we could be or what we 
                               we could do."

Boom.  That is it for me.  That's the fear or writing, I don't fear the failure of a bad grade, I fear the failure of it not being good enough.  The curbing on the golf course is similar to my fear of writing.  I hoped the curbing would go away or fix itself, so its time to rip both things off and go for it.  

Back to the curbing.  The original product was a man-made stone that had deteriorated to its current state over nearly two decades.  We have sourced a new product, Pacific black basalt from a local vendor, and we are confident the life span is much longer.

 After removing the sod and excavating the old curbing, we use the flat trough left by the old curbing to start installation of the basalt.  Starting in the middle allows us to gradually lower the end pieces to the grade of the cartpath.  Piece by piece they go in the ground and check for level along the way.  Back fill the void behind the curbing, place down some new sod and the finished product is as you see below.

The goal is to finish this project over the next two winters, it could take longer.  Hole by hole, piece by piece, just like my fear or writing, we will get it done and I will use this platform more frequently to share the happenings around the property.

Thank you for reading and until next time.  Have a great day.